Wednesday, September 10, 2008

It may have been the best day of Hailey's life.

It FINALLY came! Hailey's first day of school.


















[written last night while Hailey (and everyone else) was konked out in bed after a long long day.]

Dear Hailey,

Today was your first day of school. You have been waiting for this for as long as you have known there was such a thing as school. For the last two weeks, I have had a small pit in my stomach knowing that you would no longer be with me all day. Dad and I are so proud of you, but I must say, I was pretty lonely this afternoon.

You were so cute last night sitting in your pajamas as we had a special Family Home Evening for you and talked about President Hinckley's six "Be's." You sat so patiently through my silly power-point lesson as I crammed in as much last minute advice for you as I could think of. I was surprised that you memorized all of the "Be's" them after learning about them once. Hailey, you were made for school!

Dad's blessing for you was especially beautiful. He has never given you a blessing where he has not talked about you sharing the gospel, and maybe being a missionary someday. I can't think of anyone that is a better example of living the gospel every day. You talk of Jesus and Heavenly Father as if they lived in our house with us- as if they were your most special friends. (And they are, Hailey, they are!) You know what it means to really pray. You just get it Hailey, and I think there are many adults who don't get it like you do. Dad also talked about how your ability to learn will grow exponentially while you are in school. You are learning more every day already.

It was hard to wait on the curb for the bus with you. You were as calm as I have ever seen you. I was an internal mess. Was taking the bus a good idea? Would you find a seat okay? Would you be scared when you got to the school? Would other kids be nice to you? When your bus pulled up, you just quickly hugged me and hopped right on, waving at the top of the steps, and drove away, just like that. How is it so easy for you to new things on your own? You are so trusting of the people around you. I hope that trust never gets broken.

Nora went nuts when the bus doors closed. She tried her hardest to follow you on the bus, and she doesn't like getting left behind. I don't think she understood why we were waving your red flag on the curb by the street. She seemed totally perplexed and then peeved when the big yellow bus came and took "her Hailey" away. She cried and tried wriggling out of my arms yelling, "My Hailey, my Hailey!" Luckily her tantrums are as short as they are violent, and I appeased her by letting her carry your flag all the way home.

I had to keep myself busy for the afternoon so I wouldn't get too anxious while you were away. I was afraid you might change your mind about the school thing in the middle of the day and find out you were stuck there. As I waited for the bus to drop you off, I started wondering if I had written the right bus number on your pass. The bus was five, ten, fifteen minutes late, and my heart was pounding because I just knew that I had ruined your first day, and that you were sitting in the office crying because they didn't know how to send you home. I was torn between staying at the bus stop and running home and calling the school. Finally, your bus arrived. I saw your face in the window and you smiled and waved so proudly, and then hopped right off the bus, holding hands with two of your older friends, and another three flanking you on either side. You got through your first day without a single hitch.

I asked you how school was, and you said, "Great Mom!" and then continued on literally skipping home in a line with your friends, and me following behind. I miss you Hailey. It's hard knowing that much of my work as your mother is done, and now I am not your only teacher. But I am so proud of you.

Love, Mom.

One more small note. On Hailey's outfit: I let her choose one new school outfit, and this is what she chose to buy, which I think is funny, because out of all the clothes in every store, I think this one SCREAMS "Hi my name is Hailey and it's my first day of school.

8 comments:

Roxy said...

hailey is so beautiful and so smart. i remember when we had one of our last roommate get togethers at my house. hailey was probably only 16 months and she was already talking so much. i just remember being very impressed. she'll do great in school! i know she owes so much of who she is to you. you are an amazing mom. thanks for the great example! also, thanks for the comment on my hair, it kinda made my night :)

abby o said...

I'm tearing up. Funny how many memories that dregs up. Thanks for sharing Jenni.

Laurie said...

Oh, you make me cry! Thank you for sharing.

Aaron and Kristel said...

Hailey is such a sweetheart and amazing little girl! That story made me cry, thanks for sharing it. :)

T & E's Blog said...

That made me cry! Your love for your girls is so sweet.
Erin

Meija said...

How beautiful is you letter to your angel. I have another friend who writes letters every month... sheesh, you mom's make me wish I could rewind.

Melina said...

Why the anxiety about putting Hailey on the bus? I handled it just fine with Ben. As soon as the bus pulled away, I hopped in the car and drove to the school. Elise and I sat in the parking lot for over half an hour until the bus arrived and we could make sure that Ben was still on it and that he followed the right teacher into the school. And I did call the school when the bus bringing him home was late.

And like Hailey, he managed just fine without all my fussing.

Tell Hailey we love her and miss her and we're so excited that she gets to go to school now.

Jessica said...

I know this is an older comment, but it's the first time I've read it. I'm totally tearing up. What an amazing letter. I'm so impressed. Hailey is so so smart. I'll always remeber the "tectonic plates"(i can't spell)that she taught Mike about when the girls were over.